So I woke up today feeling so blurry
Feeling like I have no future
Feeling like I have let opportunities pass me by
Feeling blind, though I have eyes
Feeling like I cant speak,
Though I have a mouth.
I woke up today,
Feeling dead,
Though I’m alive,
Where is my future, I ask myself
Where is my destiny?
Where are my goals?
I feel like I have lost the battle,
The battle I never started
I feel like I have failed a test,
A test I never began,
I feel like I have lost the race,
A race I never ran.
Where is my future, I ask myself?
I hear the birds singing,
The sun shinning,
It’s a new day,
Yet it feels like yesterday
Yet it feels like a day I have already lived
There is nothing new in this day for me,
Because I feel empty
There is nothing new in this day for me,
Because I cant see beyond the birds,
I cant see beyond the sun,
I cant see my future.
Days pass me by,
Yet I am still the same
Where are my goals?
Where are my aspirations?
Where is my destiny?
Though I feel empty,
My heart feels heavy.
I feel I can see the road to success,
I can see the path to prosperity,
Yet I’m hanging for dear life on the crooked road,
Yet I’m walking on the pavements to an average life,
Yet I’m speeding down the lane to…. nothing
Where is my future?
I see something,
Something great,
Its like your in a desert,
When you have the illusion of water on the ground,
As you move closer to it, the water goes farther away.
That’s how I feel,
That’s how my future is to me.
Is my future an illusion?
Do I have a future?
I’m I living my life as a waste of time?
I’m I living the way I should?
I see greatness,
So close…but so far away
Though it feels like I can reach it,
It runs far away from me.
I see the foot steps to greatness
Yet, it is so hard for me to follow it step by step.
Should I just leave it at ‘everything’s gonna be alright’
Shall I take risks?
Shall I play it safe?
Where is life taking me?
If I work very hard, will it all be in vain?
Will I be happy with my future
What will I end up to be?
Sigh! I think the real question is, what do I want to be?
Lord, where is my future?
I woke up this morning feeling empty,
Yet I do not know how to be normal again.
Toluwa Oyeleye
